I was wondering if after all these years you’d like to meet,
To go over everything…
The morning I discovered my car wasn’t on my drive was the day of Krystabelle’s graduation at her nursery, at first I thought it was my brother in law playing a prank on me as it wouldn’t be the first time. Once he let himself in, emptied all my kitchen cupboards, and scattered plates and utensils all around the house, but not only that, left a very scary looking doll sitting on my stairs. In all honesty, I found it really funny and couldn’t stop laughing.
But this was no joke, I ended up calling the police but luckily I still got to attend Krystabelle’s graduation, and the police came round as soon as I got home.
Weeks of not being able to lock the front door, I mean I wasn’t sleeping at night anyway but knowing the front door was unlocked all night made me feel so paranoid, and let me tell you, sleepless nights and paranoia don’t go hand in hand very well.
A few days passed after the stolen car incident and the police had called to advise that my car had been found, but unfortunately there was a substantial amount of damage to it and it seems it had also been used in a crime. There was no chance I was getting the car back.
After weeks of stressing over multiple situations, doing the school runs now that Krystabelle’s at school, looking after a toddler and a cluster feeding baby who’s now ten months old may I add ( how did that happen? ) I often felt like I was slogging through life, I had no time for anything, I’d paid for toddler sense classes for Teddy and baby sensory classes for Hugo, that we never attended after I’d paid the highest amount of money because we used to attend every single week without fail. As a mother I really did feel like a failure. It’s funny how someone else’s wrong doing can have such an impact on your life.
This is why I needed a break from blogging and also from my Instagram account. I most certainly didn’t plan for this to happen, but it was almost impossible to keep a structured schedule and I’ve often had to remind myself that everyone goes through these sort of phases once in a while, we’re only human. We can’t be perfect all the time, I mean I’m far from perfect but hey ho, I try my best.
Five months away has been more than enough, as well as all the negatives, there has also been many positives this last year like welcoming my little Hugo into the world. I count my blessings every single day that I have three healthy, beautiful children.
But a New Year is like a blank book, it’s my chance to write a new story for myself and my family.So I’d like to wish all my readers a belated Happy New Year, and many thanks to you all who have read and viewed my blog. I greatly appreciate every single one of you.